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29May/1314

What’s Up Wednesday! End-of-May Edition!

I'm back from the hot and pleasant island of Cyprus, and back with another What's Up Wednesday post as hosted by blog friend Jaime and her sister Erin! Like Colin, this post is mostly to let you know that I'm back, alive and kickin'!

whatsupwednesday Whats Up Wednesday! End of May Edition!

What I’m Reading

I finished Chuck Wendig's THE BLUE BLAZES, which was a long and rewarding read. It was nice to hop over to adult urban fantasy again for a bit. I then started reading DARE YOU TO by Katie McGarry. Not really feeling it, it's not clicking with me.

Once I've done DARE YOU TO I'm going to give TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD a spin, because I've been itching to read this classic for ages and I haven't got round to it yet.

What I’m Writing

My holiday kicked me out of my good writing habits, so I'm slowly trying to get back into the swing of things.

Toying with a plot bunny for a middle grade/children's story, but I think I'm just being flighty. I've hit some plotting issues with the middle section of Leviathan Rises and I think I'm just procrastinating from that.

Still, plot bunnies are fun! And I'll be getting back to the seamonster story shortly, fingers crossed.

What Inspires Me Right Now

Writer and friend John Dixon recently shared the trailer for INTELLIGENCE, based on his upcoming YA novel PHOENIX ISLAND. Take a look! It stars Sawyer from LOST (Josh Holloway) and looks like it'll include a few of my favourite things: badass ladies! Witty banter!

I loved this article: “‘We Have Always Fought’: Challenging the ‘Women, Cattle and Slaves’ Narrative” by Kameron Hurley.

annaandthefrenchkiss 99x150 Whats Up Wednesday! End of May Edition!I also just read Stephenie Perkin's blog about the status of her upcoming "Isla and the Happily Ever After" and her struggles with depression. It wasn't inspiring, but it was an important post to read as a far of her work.

Also, Elementary, which I just finished and loved every minute of. Strong female characters! Generally good representations of all minorities! A male-female bromance! This was a brilliant way to spend my time waiting for BBC's Sherlock, and despite my reservations about the show I really enjoyed it and highly recommend it.

Check out the trailer, which has minor spoilers for the first episode but gives you a good idea of the show's style.

 

What Else I've Been Up To

I managed to get severe food poisoning while in Cyprus, which messed me up for about a week afterwards. I'm doing better now, but I have a lot to catch up on: reading, writing, and blogging especially.

I didn't do myself any favours by buying a PS3 console, but heeeeeey... it's nice to spend some time gaming, even if I need to learn to manage my time better.

28Jan/131

The Day The Alarm Didn’t Stop

Early this morning, there was a problem in the office where I work.

Initially, I wasn't too fussed. I had mechanisms in place to deal with distracting office noise.

But then it continued for over an hour. 

 

And continued.

...and continued...

Until, four hours later:

And hours later, the memory remains.

Though there were some highlights to lessen the headaches.

 

After all that, I'm glad to me home with a cup of Chai tea and my trusty TARDIS dressing gown. It's just a shame I can still hear the ringing.

31Dec/125

Emma’s Big 2013 To-Do List

Because I like numbers! And I like lists!

My plans for 2013 have a heavy focus on personal creativity, then personal culture, and then being more social/getting involved in the writing community. It's a fairly involved plan so we'll see how it goes, though I achieved much more last year than I ever expected to.

New Years Resolutions

  1. Waste less time aimlessly browsing the internet.
  2. Read more.
  3. Write more.
  4. Have fun and spend more time outdoors

To-Do List

      • Finish two first drafts. At the moment, these look likely to be the REBEL AGAINST HEAVEN sequel and the 'flooded Britain' WIP, but we'll see.
      • Edit and revise the 'Girls Who Fix Giant Robots' first draft. Planning to do this in February or in March. After that, the beta readers will get a taste!
      • Bonus points if I manage to write some short stories.
      • Get 12 illustrations done throughout the year.
      • Post more sketchbook and work in progress images.
      • Update the site's design. I'm thinking of using a theme that focusses more on my books, a writing portfolio of sorts.
      • Read 35 books (focussing on the for review pile, the personal to-read pile, comics and some non-fiction).
      • Read 10 short stories (collections count as '1' because I'm cruel).
      • Finish 5 games. (Currently planning: Persona 4, Shadow of Colossus, Ocarina of Time, El Shaddai and Tales of Vesperia)
      • Watch a few seasons of Buffy The Vampire Slayer and catch up with Season 8 of Supernatural.
      • Go to Stornoway with the other half (he's never been) in February.
      • Go to Cyprus (for a family wedding).
      • Attend Strange Chemisty's YA Con (13/14th July in Birmingham if all goes to plan)
      • Attend World Fantasy Con in Brighton (31st October - 3rd November in Brighton), most likely in the company of the lovely Laura Lam.
      • Frown at the sight of my bank account.

Some other bits and pieces I have planned:

    • Focus less on blog book reviews and more on personal, writing, and art posts.
      The last few years of book reviews were originally started as an exercise in critical thinking, to force me to dissect what I like and don't like about books. These days, with drama levels rising over whether authors can also review and the role of book bloggers, it's stopped being a fun learning experience and turned into an added workload. I don't like finishing a book and going 'ugh now I need to put together a review', so I'll be slowing down on the reviews.
    • Do more THINGS. Get LIFE EXPERIENCES. This one is an utter pain to do because... how do you add more excitement to your life? I dunno! But I guess I'll try to find things. The conventions should help, especially because I'll get to do some travelling and meet lots of writer friends offline.
    • 'Pay it back' to the art community a bit by getting commissions from artists I love. I love doing this, but I need to be careful because good art costs.
30Dec/127

Looking back at 2012

Oh jeez, that year went by quickly didn't it? This time last year I was listening to the same Christmas songs, I'd only just met some of the blog friends that keep me enthused about writing. I hadn't had our Labrador Mac very long at all, but now it feels like we've had him for years. I hadn't yet moved house to our third rented home, a house by the beach. The Strange Chemistry Open Door, through which I met some amazing friends, hadn't even happened yet.

I was worried about how I'd handle my new job role, and by this point in the year I couldn't remember which job that was -- I changed my role again in the summer and work's been a roller-coaster ever since.

Looking Back

At this time last year, I was looking forward to getting REBEL critiqued and out on submission, which went well for me, but funnily enough I'm back in a similar place -- revising it with my agent to go on submission to publishers. How very circular.

But in between revisions, I wrote a new book. I'm ridiculously proud of this, because I've been working on turning REBEL into a coherent book for almost four years. I also took part in Write On Con (a hugely exciting online convention) and I had a great time just hanging out with my online writing friends there.

I came up with the idea for REBEL AGAINST HEAVEN (new title soon, maybe) on 5th April 2009 as a script for ScriptFrenzy before I realised I love the bitter, wounded narrative voice and wanted to take it further. That's almost four years of working on this book. I didn't properly knuckle down to finish the draft until April 2010, taking the story from 13,000 words to 44,000 by September and 60,000 by May 2011 (there's a gap in my records between September and May, not sure why). After that, it's been revisions for the past two years.

I feel like my art has taken some significant leaps this year as well. Some personal highlights include my work at digital paintingblack-and-white sharpie doodlescharacter redesigns, and colour theory. I hope to continue this slow-but-steady progress into the new year, where I'm going to be doing more life drawing and trying to get better at some of the things I'm weak at (hands, feet, dynamic poses, backgrounds, ethnic facial features).

My Favourite Blog Posts This Year

  1. Writing A First Draft -- This was an important milestone to me, because I proved to myself that I could a) write something that wasn't REBEL and b) write it surprisingly fast.
  2. I've Got An Agent -- I'd been struggling in the query trenches for over two years, with plenty of near-misses and painful set-backs, before I hit this point. *confetti and party poppers*
  3. How I Got My First Tattoo
  4. The Week Long Birthday
  5. How I Get Over Writer's Block
  6. Stornoway in the Summer and Stornoway in Autumn!

My Favourite Books of 2012

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Disclaimer: these are all books I've read in 2012, not books released in 2012.

  1. Blood and Feathers
  2. Blackbirds & Mockingbird
  3. The Fault in Our Stars
  4. The Raven Boys
  5. The Knife of Never Letting Go

Honorable Mentions: Code Name Verity and Anna and the French Kiss both dug deep into my emotions for very different reasons, and still stay with me now.

My Favourite Games This Year

That's right, I'm a gamer too! It's been 2013: The Year of Indie over here, with my top games all being major names on the indie market.

Disclaimer: these are all games I've played in 2012, not games released in 2012.

  1. Bastion
  2. Limbo
  3. Cave Story+
  4. Psychonauts
  5. Sonic Generations
9Dec/123

My Weird Stornoway Dreams

emmawindmill My Weird Stornoway Dreams

One of the Stornoway wind farm windmills. That's me on the bottom left!

While in Stornoway, sleeping without an alarm clock to disturb my dreams, I had a handful of very odd dreams. I noted them down, and thought I'd share them for those of you who get a kick out of surreal dreamworld logic. (I know I do.)

21.11.2012:

I keep having nightmares where I'm in a situation where I have to attack or defend myself and I just can't damage my attacker. I use all the right moves, but I just can't bruise them. Missing or hurt pets is also a regular theme.

In this nightmare, some kids trashed my parents house while we were gone and let the dog out (my own dog, in the dream). I grabbed one of them but I wasn't strong enough to do any damage, and they just kept talking and boasting about their robbery while I struggled to hold on to him. I even covered his face and neck in boiling water and it had no effect.

22.11.2012:

Another recurinng dream theme is where I'm left in charge of pet fish and accidentally kill them, no matter how hard I try to look after them well. These two fish were given to me frozen inside a supermarket sandwich box. I filled the sandwich box with water and they returned to life. One of them leapt away and got lost under the fridge, never to be seen again.

23.11.2012:

A dream instead of a nightmare. I decided to give blood at the hospital. The process was slow, painful and exhausting. I woke up feeling more tired than when I'd first gone to bed.

7Sep/125

How I Got Through My First Tattoo

Warning: this post will contain a tiny amount of photographed blood.

ying yang feather by lilythula d4qd113 184x300 How I Got Through My First TattooI’ve been wanting a tattoo for the last few years. The idea of getting permanent art etched on my skin really appealed to my artsy side, but I’m horribly, cripplingly indecisive. I couldn’t pick a design I wanted with me for the rest of my life.

Until one day, when surfing the internet on a lunch break, I came across this design. It clicked instantly, shouting out to me as something that was beautiful, symbolic, and totally right for me.

After getting a second opinion from fiance Dave, I contacted the artist and asked if she'd mind me using the design. She was fine with it, and asked to see it when it was done... which meant I was now honor-bound to go through with this.

Oh dear.

I got some recommendations for local tattoo artists from friends, and Angie from 2Tone Tattoos in Inverness was enthusiastically recommended for greyscale and lineart tattoos. I've got bad social anxiety when it comes to phoning people up, so originally I just e-mailed her. When no reply came I swallowed my nerves and phoned her. The appointment was booked for the end of that week (last Friday).

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NERVES

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This is the photo with blood. Be warned!

Having a tattoo done is a strange experience. Sometimes, it's just vibrations on your skin, with no pain at all. But when it's over your bones or veins, it really does sting. Not enough to make me cry out, just enough to make me tense my free arm against the couch or squeeze Dave's hand.

The image on the left is of the 'outline' stage of the tattoo, which was by far the most painful bit. The black fills were easy by comparison. Towards the end we went back to the outline needles to get in some of the finer details. My skin was very raised and swollen by this point, which didn't help the pain.

At it's very worst I gritted my teeth, huffed a bit, and took a two minute break to drink fizzy juice and shake my cramped muscles.Most of the time I just kept my eyes away from the needles and stared at the wall, the floor, or Dave pulling stupid faces and showing me pictures of our dogs on his phone. My arm shook a lot, but this was an automatic response I couldn't actually control.

Tips for Getting Your First Tattoo:

NEVER EVER LOOK AT THE NEEDLE. This advice has got me through blood tests and dental work for years, and it's just as useful with tattoos. Looking at it makes my mind go 'ahhhhh blood what's going on' and I don't want to trigger myself into a panic.

Bring something to drink. Dave nipped to the shops to get some fizzy juice, and the sugar definitely helps, but I also regretted not stopping at a cafe for a hot cuppa tea beforehand.

After two hours of not-as-bad-as-I-imagined tattooing, the end result was done. And I love it, you guys. I really love it. As soon as it was done (hell, as soon as we started) I knew it was worth the discomfort and nerves to wear a brilliant piece of art on my arms:

feathertattoo How I Got Through My First Tattoo

So now, readers, I want to know your stories: have you got tattoos? Do you want tattoos? If you do, what designs are you thinking of?

25Mar/124

Dear March, I Do Not Like You

sleepisnotnecessary Dear March, I Do Not Like You

This image was drawn by Sekra, and I have a sneaking suspicion she had a look right into my life because HELLO THIS IS ME. I even have that Batman t-shirt... but I lack the awesome haircut. I want short hair but I think I'd suck at pulling it off, I'm very much a 'wake up and run a brush through it' person when to comes to hair styles.

March has been insanely difficult and I can't wait for it to be over. Some of my relatives have been in hospital. Moving house is ridiculously complicated and tiring. We've been understaffed at work. I'm facing a lot of biiig changes I need to make to my writing WIP, and I just want to run the other way and hide in a corner because large-scale revisions are hard. AND I'VE RUN OUT OF MILK FOR TEA.

But on the bright side: I had an awesome dinner party with my friends last night, I saw The Hunger Games, and I'm incredibly lucky and have some of the best friends this shy geek could ever ask for.

I just can't wait for things to get back in order so I can relax. In the meantime, I'm going to go outside and get some fresh air, sunshine, and milk so I can make so much tea.